Well as predicted, the Day 6 momentum that I had built was lost.
I managed Friday and Saturday without drinking anything and then for some reason snuck off on Sunday and bought 2 RTDs. Monday it was x4. Tuesday it was x7. Wednesday x5 and then today (Thursday) x3.
None of these days am I getting drunk or even "tiddly" because those days when I drink a larger amount I'm spreading them out over the day ie. yesterday I had 1 at 10am (leftover from day before), two at about 3pm and then the other two at 7pm-ish.
So my reasons for giving up aren't for avoiding problems caused by being drunk (because I rarely am drunk these days - that stopped back in January). There is still a huge list of reasons though.
I liked how I felt last week when I wasn't drinking - I was feeling more positive, happier, less anxious/depressed etc.
It is the same cycle over and over, it is just so god damned tedious.
There are three alcohol books waiting at the library for me to collect. I will pick these up tomorrow hopefully and start Day 1 again for the last time.
Hi, I just found your blog. I'm ready to be here for you, and so are others (heck we have the same blog roll.) Get those books and start reading. How about a bit of a "book report" as you go, as a way to talk about what you are learning. I just finished "Drinking, A Love Story" and enjoyed it. I need to figure out what to read next. But I'll keep checking up on you, so post daily.
ReplyDeleteHi Knitting! What a wonderful idea on the book reviews - I will definitely do that. I've the books in my hot little hands so Jill Stark's High Sobriety will be first! I think I have Drinking, A Love Story on request at the library. Absolutely I will blog daily, it is working for you and so many others so any tool that works is what I will be doing this time around.
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