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Thursday, 7 August 2014

Day 6 - Fuck it!! Back to Day 1

I'm so so so upset .  Had this damn work thing at one of NZ's most beautiful wineries.  First up - lunch is served - wine/beer for EVERYONE else and I happily had a ginger beer.  Then go into 4 hours of business planning - water/coffee for everyone.  And then. Wine tastings.  we are all standing around in a half circle and it would look very obvious if I didn't join in with these fairly senior managers.  I skipped one but 3 tastings later you know what comes next.  Yes a wine with dinner that is topped up and now I'm sitting in my car having just had 2 x RTDs.

So people - one wine "tasting" equals probably 7 units of alcohol. Yes it was yum but now I feel drowsy and upset at myself.  Plus I have to go home and explain to my hubby.  His parents are staying tonight which is a great distraction but it is his birthday tomorrow - happy birthday poor hubby.

I'm so scared that now I've lost the 6 days of momentum I won't be able to do this again for a few months.  I need to somehow pull out the strength to start afresh tomorrow.

God this sucks I know I can't blame anyone but me but damn what a horrible torture for someone in their first week of sobriety to be at a wine tasting where they are expected to join in!!!!!!

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