Although to be honest the weekends are a little easier than weekdays anyway. I used to drink every single day - without a single day off even if sick. This stopped in January when my husband caught me with my hidden stash of wine in the office cupboard (I'd have 1-2 glasses openly but then go and top up at least another glass and/or a couple of RTDs) - since then I have completely stopped drinking wine apart from a few occasions since. So the remaining problem is the RTDs - my hubby still thinks I only have 1-2 but it is more like 4-6. But I usually only drink them during the week - I have them throughout the afternoon so that I am not tipsy or don't smell of alcohol too strongly (so can get away with the 1-2 drinks story).
Today - Monday - is where things usually become harder as I always drink Monday to "reward" myself for being good all weekend. I'm about to head off to work so will spend the time in traffic devising other ways to reward myself for the first Monday of my new sober life.
Being Monday it is recycling day - I have a pile of RTD bottles stashed out in the garden so will go and put them in the bin that is already at the top of the drive and that will be that - no more empties to have to get rid of ever again! Ugh the lengths I have to go to with all this dishonest drinking - usually with bottles I wrap them in a towel, smash into pieces with a hammer, put into plastic bags and hide bit by bit in the big rubbish bin amongst other rubbish. What a ridiculous way to live.
Today's Benefit of Becomg Sober - no more lying and sneaking around behind my husband's back. He deserves to have a fully honest wife, not one that lies to his face and spends a huge amount of time ensuring she is not caught (again). And he worst thing - the worry of being caught was more about no longer being able to get away with the drinking more than the awfulness of him knowing he couldn't trust me. Alcohol has made me into a person I do not like or want to be.
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