Not only did I make it through my traditional stumbling block of Day 4 I did it despite having a huge upset with my 13 year old. Well I can't really take credit for that really as I was "trapped" at home when this happened so couldn't drink anything anyway but still I did make it.
Boy I can see why alcohol is my usual go to when I am upset - having to deal with things sober is just awful really - I was an emotional wreck all evening. Poor husband had to cope with my crying and crying, being all sorry for myself etc. But he was happier coping with a crying, sober wife than a drunk one. I'm at least a little more rational and don't go saying things I would have regretted today.
So, yay I'm on Day 5. I've only had two Day 5s and they were both successful so this one will be too (see how it is all in my mind!). I am working from home all day today which is usually very dangerous territory but luckily today I have a work event I have to be at between 4-6pm so I can't drive to that/turn up to that after drinking. Probably normally I would have still had at least 2 RTDs though at lunchtime so it still isn't plain sailing. But I have my eyes on the big prize - I somehow need to drag myself to Day 28 and I feel from there it surely must get much easier (from reading blogs of people who are up to day 20-something they do seem to be struggling less from hour to hour).
There really is no easy way through this is there - no magic pill that I can take to make me stop wanting to drink. I just have to somehow not drink and then eventually I won't want to.
Today's Benefit of Becomg Sober - I don't have to hide empty cans/bottles around the house/in the garden until I can dispose of them secretly. Always worrying they'll be discovered.
Yay! Told you could make it through Day 4 and you have. So deep breaths and through Day 5 you go! What's going to be your prize for day 28? I am already musing over what I am getting myself for Day 30, my personal prize day. Mrs D's website goes live today - so I look forward to seeing you on there too. Let me know how day 5 goes xx
ReplyDeleteLol I keep pushing refresh on Mrs D's website to get the update! I've just been down the road to get sushi - normally I then call into the liquor store and get 4 RTDs (followed by another 2 at at different store later) but repeated over and over "Day 5, Day 5, Day 5" all the way home. I do not want to go back to the Day 1 cycle ever again, it is exhausting. Hmm Day 28 treat, I think I'll treat myself to a "sick day" at work (have about 20 sick days stored up) and use up the massage voucher I got for my birthday!
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