Phew - I made it through the afternoon without caving in to that little devil. Monday is the highest risk day of the week for me - particularly if I've gone all weekend without drinking anything. Then what follows is another 3-4 days of drinking before I try and give up all over again on Friday. Very predictable.
I reminded myself of how crap I felt all day Friday due to the fact that I drank way way too much on Thursday with the sole intention of it being The Last Time. Remember? I wanted to go out on a bang - get drunk, feel yuk, have a horrible hangover etc. I've gotten rid of all the empties and this is it. I am not going to drink again, ever.
I'm so sick of trying to give up - I've tried and tried countless things over the years and I have to do this - I promised to have achieved this before I turned 40 (which failed, I've been 40 for over 2 months now). I'll need to just stack days up one at a time until I get a large enough momentum going to carry me forward without so much effort.
Today's Benefit of Becoming Sober - I can kiss my hubby and boys without worrying about stinking of vodka or wine. My husband hates it (so sadly I avoid kissing him if I've been drinking) and although my boys have never said anything I'm sure they notice the difference - alcohol is not a smell I want them to associate to their mum's goodnight kiss.
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